the last week has been filled with many heartaches and havent been a bit easy. many of my days my face was soaked in tears. it could have been too much for me to take with the amount of stress and sleep i get. but all i can say now as i look back, God has been so real and true in my life for the past weeks. His grace abounded so greatly beyond where all my hurts reached. even the word spoken in cg was literary tailored for me. kinda embarrassing to have broken down like i did in a cg not my own. i couldnt care more for i knew God was there. wanting me to release all my pains and diapoointments unto Him and to trust in His tender love. i can never say how thankful i am for a Father like Him and the people He has placed in my lives. leaders whom gave wise counsel and friends that cheered me on. escape has never been a soultion and it never will. though the weeks ahead might be gruelling. i now know that i can trust even more in His unfailing grace. the burdens are not mine for they are all His to take. don't ask me how i can walk on like i am now. see for yourself and taste God's goodness in your own life. it is true that i had moments where i harboured thoughts of giving up but this was never meant to be. Friend. the best and only way is to press on, not retreat. for at the end of every tunnel, there would be a light. and a revelation that i had from someone was that even as we are in the valley of the shadow of death, we need not fear for He is with us. and how can we conclude this? how can there be shadows without a light. we just need to learn to realigned ourselves and run towards Him and nothing would be too difficult to surmount.
throughout this period of time. i wished i could talk to 2 persons whom i would really like to share my heart with. but they just seemed so busy and away. now i understand what she meant by 'to you'. i failed as a friend in a life in whom i so much i wanted to share my life with. i stopped at thinking. if and only if i had pressed on more, not taking things the way it was. i'm never secure enough to get into your life. i really wonder what would you think. tears flowed as moments of how you struggled alone came to me as i read your msg on that faithful day. we kept secrets a too many from one another. you've given much into my life and into this friendship but yet i dunno what i've poured into yours. can our relationship together work like what we wanted it to be? have i really been too busy with my own life that i neglected yours? you seem so stressed that i dunno if i shld ever add to ur burden. maybe if i opened up more, you would too. i've taken things for granted and that i know. can we give another chance to this friendship to make it work? Jesus, you be the centre of us both. i cried out for a close friend but yet i didnt know how to cherish you when you ca,e by. i've been thinking that this road would have been easier to walk through despite the mountains we have to overcome if we learnt how to depend on each other instead of being so interdependent. i'm clueless of how to ever press into your life but i'll try to anyway. Holy Spirit, help me to make this work!
+++Appreciations+++
SHOWTIME peeps:
you rock! your really went into the moment and captured tat very moment. you guys are an awesome bunch and really made things work. i want to continually be able to be working together with all of you. thanks for all your willingness and for being able to be part of the team that established a milestone for InE. thanks a million!
to all the audience that came:
thanks a million for your support. it was a major driving force and motivation to all of us that were on the team. you made me feel the NJ spirit and being part of team NJ. your presence made a great impact to our performance on stage as well. keep on rocking, keep on going!
to 06S06:
no words can ever say how much i want to thank all of you for your willingness and your can to spirit. really enjoyed being around you guys and making things work. in all of you i see the admirable spirit of 'servanthood'. not calling your servants but your willingness really held me in awe. i apologize for keep getting your to do things but i really appreciate the spirit your did them in. even till the very last minute when i requested for the nails for Deb, your just did it with no complaints. the success of showtime would not have been as it was without you. Spread on the enthu fire. and not just dat. i totally love the cheer your came up with. though how last minute a notice was given, your did it all the same.
yi er san si
si san er yi
tuan jie de li liang
wu ren neng di dang
hei hei de zi ma hu
guo chu guo chu, oei!
Joseph, the associate producer:
thanks for all your help that came in from you the last minute and seeing the potential in us! he is the man who helped me to look like a broadcaster on tv by getting the proffesionals to do my hair and make up (though i feel somewhat like an air stewardess after that). i felt that he was God-sent. he played another key role in making our 'hei ren' look like one, Han n Kangyu to look similar and me as a broadcaster. =p
Ms Ng:
She was the heart of the whole thing, making things work and going. her innovation for the bed, her concern for the welfare of our tummies, her travelling the distances and more despite the last minute-ness of the whole thing. she helped us to see the possibility of the whole thing work. really thank God for her if not we would see endless fascinations of KK. Ms Ng, you are one awesome lady, one of a kind and you make things happen! despite you not knowing a lot abt theatre, you made it work.
Ms Chua:
almost likened to an angel. =p her calmness and rational helped to tighten details up and i am wowed by her dedication and commitment and what she can do for her friends. amazing!
Most importantly, i thank Gof for all the favour that He has showered upon me and the team throughout. indeed it could not have been possible for the whole performance to pull off and spell success if not for the favour He has on us and the doors He opened for us to move into. and His grace and strength has also juz been so evident as well.
more of God's goodness has been upon my life. will update later. gotta go for class le....
12:11 PM
