e past three weeks have been vey trying. first was OP then things at home. i wondered why is this year especially trying. but hey, it does spell greater breakthroughs as well...
been crying. been thinking. altho' bro paul was telling me not to think too much yday. i really really need to set aside time to really think things through and pray. God, won't you teach me how? its true when ran was saying dat kk was saying that more often than not, we live our lives on borrowed strength from God, and this is how we all pulled through. i can't imagine how i could have emerged from all that has happened in the past, if not for God's faithfulness, strength, grace and most importantly, His love.
Jimmy was saying that strength = ability to bounce back or bounce even higher in adversities... keep on keeping on...
dad posed the qn of moving in with him today. Bedok. i really dunno if it will be a right choice to decide to move in with him. dun think mum will take it very well if dat really happens. so many factors to consider...
work in TBS has been very tiring for the past few days but has been really fun. sales is getting better and dere are now more customers. finds joy in the hustle and bustle, though feeling kinda restricted by the wporking hours at times...
although you might not get many souls saved but yet through your life, you'll be a comfort to many and be a shining light, blessing ppl with your testimony... Bob, prophesying over my life
God, the weight of the burden that i'm carrying is really too heavy beyond what i can bear on my own. show me your saving grace. i need to know you all over again once more. i need you more than ever before. i need to fill my love tank with Your love to love and continue to be a love vessel to my family, friends, kids and members.
i was juz wondering if it was more difficult for me or for my sisters in living this life. didnt try to make comparisons but tried putting myself in their shoes, knowing that they went through things i myself didnt.
i just feel like curling up once again at times. i dun quite understand why do i have to go thru so many things in my life. mum was juz questioning my church commitment on thurs. it did cause me to wonder for a moment. but hey, i've been there for the family even more than before nowadays and i cant be at home 24/7. so many of the things that i had to go through was because of mummy n daddy. i dun wish to go to court. i really don't. i sometimes wished that i dunno so much, i wished that i can don't care. but i just can't do it. they are my family. who else can be even closer to the heart? it is back to the bottomline of the broken down world dat we are living in.
dearest called for suicide on thurs. the police was called in. mum was hurt in the process when dearest whacked the scissors against her continually. i felt the pain for mum but yet i did wonder as well.
been moody. not much of an appetite either.
this phase of time has opened up me to more things in the family. and somehow, i no longer want to talk about the problems anymore to anyone. i rather just think things through on my own. besides, accountability to barry and bob, i dun seem to be able to vocalise it out as much...
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navigating and marking milestones in my life as a budding linguist, sister, daughter, leader and friend
daughter of grace.
a woman must bury her heart so deeply in God such that the man has to go through God to find it
lil ms.
Grace, Yun Rui
CHC.W466.
NTU LMS Year 2
goals.
GPA 4 for this semester
learn guitar
creative curriculum
reads.
sister's keeper
wishes.
Mission trip
bibleglo
itouch
10 megapix Digital Camera
photo printer
skechers or any uber comfy shoes and platforms
hard disk drive
