been almost a month since i last posted.

the past few weeks has been rather tiring, plus i wasn't feeling all that well.

had spelling bee coaching yesterday and once again i'm reminded of the odds - 1 girl up against 7 guys. i'm praying that i'll do well enough for everything and end up at grand finals. and also promised to finish all the 2,500 words by then.

speaking of which, it reminded me of the pic dat the fotographer took of me. yang sent it to me and i look really distraught - everything was wrong except for my smile, which actually worked out right. a real surprise since my smile is always the one that screw up. but anyway, hope that they'll take another one when i get into the grand finals. at least look better.

spent a good time studying today, at least slowly getting into the momentum. right now, i still owe benzie an essay - knowledge is power. consider, in relation to the social sciences, or the humanitites, or even the sciences, how far this is true of knowledge sharing in a society.

in the first place, can knowledge be shared? 1200 words to be on it in 1 and a half hour. ki essays are really mind-boggling. but thank God that for now, i can type it out. if not, imagine the number of trees that i'm indirectly killing by crushing up my folscap paper umpteen times.

at this point of time, i'm gaining clarity and direction in life. at least for my friendship with some of my close friends are working its way out the right way, i hope. gaining serenity in a sense as well.

oh. apss was really awesome, with the 2 days spent at grand copthrone waterfront hotel. although it did burn a hole in my pocket with all the cabs. all my gg and leaving the hotel involved some sort of cab rides. but really enjoyed all the people i met, nikki (who was also there frm YA), deborah - amazing voice, susan - editorial assistant frm XL (a good target for my IS), mitchell etc. it was a good working exp with joy and tina as well. met yongquan, the architect who is helping us for E day as well. a very funny person and amazing. you cld never tell that he went through an accident. really.

really thank God that my walk with Him is improving though there were valleys. really thank God for His grace in the breakthroughs that i had for offering msgs. all praises unto Him. been very blessed by the whole series of SOTM as well and i do see a improvement in my walk - now with a renewed passion and fire.

just a side note...

after attending the E3 seminar on networking, its amazing how fast we actually connect with pple. i'm now pretty particular abt handshakes as well. shook hands with a lot of ppl from thurs to sunday. oh. the hotel food was very sumptuous as well. yummy!

hmm. so many thoughts running through my mind dat i think i'm probably not blogging with a lot of sense...

oh. i really do want to start selling personalized cards and figurines on e-bay. must really work it out right first. kor gonna lend me his account i think... =) hopefully my ideas will work out fine...

some thoughts i had on some men in society yesterday (hopefully, i'm not over-generalizing)...

its pretty sad how men in society has degenerated over time and begin to shirk all their responsibilities. it is undeniable that men in general still hold most of the leadership positions in society today, but i cant say the same 10 - 20 years from now. and was jus reminded of what adrian said about that there are more up and coming female entrepreneurs as compared to men. even in the club, the guys are the one that are more laidback and ususally its the girls slogging out in the exco, although they are better at somethings than we are at.the distinction bwt genders has blurred over time. seriously. and its rather sad to see some fathers not taking ownership of their familes and how the women ends up having to mother her own husband and kids. its quite a sad picture. really. i believe that it is only when men learns to lead once again den can the women enter their role of being a woman. as a female myself, if i could choose, i would want someone to lead me as well, being a girl who is doted upon. tell me, which girl wont want that? i believe that underneath every woman's strong appearance, there is a soft spot to be pampered. i'm known as a brother initially for my gung-ho-ness. for who i am. and now, pple noe me as their mum. wonder how the progression will move.but on a more serious note, society is entering a downward spiral if men still dun learn to take responsibility and slack off. they are to lead. if they still dont learn to step up, then many many other women still will have to struggle with their identity as a woman and some, hating this very identity. this is not unfounded.so currently, "fight like a girl - the power of being a woman" is a very good read. not just for gals, but guys alike. the book has been insightful and will really need to read more from it...

and sth interesting is that i have a di and a kor now since sat.

jiaxian msged me and asked if i cld be his godsis and since, we are already bro and sis in christ so why not? and ever since den, he's been calling me jie.

its amazing how i ended up with a kor i would say. he calls me twin on his blog. we were just talking on msn and he decided to christen me as his sis. so presto, i have a kor now.

oh. and i decided that i shld blog more on various issues once i have the time too. zajbun thought very well on self-esteem, maybe i shld do that too...