this is my 203 posts!
haha. pretty amazing that this blog is still around.
was just reading through my 2006 (haven quite got through the year yet...)
but got pretty thought-ful and thankful...
comparing now and then, i felt that i have grown and mature a lot, esp in the 5 months of SOT.
just like what lulu-jie told me at the brink of graduation, "look at how much you have grown!"
my capacity has been stretched and i now know God in a way that i never knew before.
the reality of His love, presence and all-knowing knowledge.
i now know that everything is in good hands when i place them in His.
so much things have happened over the past 5 months, even at the brink of graduation.
there was probably a lot of emotional dealings through it all.
and i thank God for the strength and grace to go through all of them.
i'm glad to be able to deal with things the way i am now.
even if they might not be very right, i know i can count on God to direct me the right way up.
loving God more each day now.
and the morning prayers do help me get through the day better.
and end of the day, it is always a choice to love.
like what pastor has always been saying that it is always about making the decision to fall in love with the same person over and over again.
my choice is clear. no mixture about it.
my heart no longer has space for anyone else anymore.
i love Him and my love for Him will grant me love for the others that needs to be loved.
single-minded in doing what i have to and would want to do.
anw, as a fresh SOT graduate, i am excited and expectant of what is going to unfold before the year comes to an end.
its time for the next 3 months to bring forth growth that would have taken a year.
more planning, praying and fasting but would gladly give it all for more of You.
i feel different and know that i am different.
for this cause, i lay down my life.
for You, i give it all up for you showed me the life that i can have in You.
having been utterly broken and given a new lease of life, i follow you.
the beautiful thing is remaining broken and in total surrender to You.
I LOVE YOU!!!
p.s. i realized that i have been having my dream birthdays for the past 3 years.
2006 - the music dedication by the fountain of wealth
2007 - the surprise gathering of my dearest and closest friends @ glass house (my fav!)
2008 - the sparklers/fireworks display @ kallang rooftop garden & the picnic by ECP (yet another fav!)
been having really princessy birthdays! so blessed and loved! ^^
a life that takes giving to live...
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