made a resolution not to spend excessive time blogging though it really helps in getting my thoughts to flow and mark my growth and progress into Christ-likeness. so gonna cap it to max half an hour per day.
was reading the blogs of some people yesterday and it got me wondering on what is the purpose behind the blog of avid bloggers and those not-so-active bloggers.
putting aside those that use it as a source of income (that would be another story), people generally blog to document their thoughts, as an outlet and also to remember moments of their lives. there are also others that blog to inspire and raise awareness, the very purpose of
blog action day.
it was really encouraging to read of the struggles and thoughts that people go through. not that i am sadistic but purely because you know that people that you look up to are humans. it makes them more relatable and builds up faith. seeing what they go through and yet, they still stand strong, being overcomers in life inspires me to do likewise. and that's why we all need one another in this world. if anyone was totally self-sufficient, do tell me about it. it is life that all of us have our own area of weakness, no matter how 'perfect' we may appear to be.
and as i grow older, there is nothing that i would give than to be me. God loves me just the way that i am. there is no need for any pretense. obviously, it isn't an excuse for me to not change for the better. but the point that i'm trying to make is that at the end of the day, putting all aside, we are all humans and we will fail at some point or another. the important thing is embracing yourself as who God has created you to be and only then can you have constructive changes to your life. otherwise, you'll probably get so frustrated trying to become someone that you are not and just give up on it all together.
part of a prayer that i made yesterday was this...
no matter how i may fail or make mistakes, let me never fall away but always back into Your arms. in You, i'll find strength for each day. i never want to be apart from you every single moment of my life. let me draw closer to you every day, loving you more each day. and i know that who i am today and all that i will become is not by myself but by your love, grace and tender mercies...
being a christian for 12 years now, the walk is just getting even more exciting each day, esp as we are embarking on the next building fund and a paradigm shift in the church, school and my life. there is just so much things in wait. and i know that God will lead me through it all and i'm glad that i am in the centre of it all. it is indeed a great privilege to be part of history in the making. i don't know how i will be balancing everything, how the finances are going to come in and how everything will go, but i trust in God in His faithfulness and steadfast love to provide for all that He has called for. i thank Him that i no longer need to live for myself but for Him and like what is being said that truly His yoke is easy and His burden is light. i never felt better than i am now! (probably just need to sleep more or less... hmm..)
for all those that has been reading my blog, embrace yourself for who you are. you are worthy because He said so and He has proven it by sending His most beloved to make a life that we could only dream of otherwise possible. don't be afraid to step out and let go of what is good and what you are comfortable with for it is often the enemy of what is the best. no longer let your life be shortchanged by what people have said, may say or would say. ignore the naysayers but learn to be open to wise counsel.
and to my dear friends who have been a tough situation this season, i am really proud of you having not giving up but took it as a learning opportunity, leaning and falling back onto God, made the right decisions and now stand stronger. your experiences will bless someone else. mine made me more human and now with greater empathy.
something that i preached about during SOT and aptly speaks of what faith is all about can be found in James 1:2-8 (the Message)
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who "worry their prayers" are like wind-whipped waves. Don't think you're going to get anything from the Master that way, adrift at sea, keeping all your options open.
Keep on standing strong, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith. Know that God would never put you through sth that you are not ready for. And whatever you face, He is ever-ready to bring forth all the provision for you to breakthrough. Keep on keeping on and never give up. Like what i have been saying, if you are already at the worst you have ever experienced, then praise God for there is no lower that you can go for things can only get better from now. jia you!
and as i stand at the brink, i'm going to give myself to a week of fasting and prayer...and now back to planning...
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