i like the wee hours of the morning when everything is quiet, save for the music that is playing from jewel. it gives me time and space to think, plan and reflect. been planning for the past hour or so for the cg in 2009. many thoughts came to my mind, both revelation and things to do. but in the end everything falls in place and come into full circle. It all boils down to 3Ls (with thanks from sot on homiletics). and everything needs to go right back to the basics. the best things are yet kept simple. i am excited for cg to start next week, or maybe just a bit hesitant. but no matter what, i'll put my best foot forward!
today is one of the days that i find myself struggling with the battlefield of the mind and emotion. i prayed for a breakthrough, asking God to help me through this and not be found in wanting. been quite a while now ever since i made two decisions that i still find myself battling with now and then when it gets really challenging. but i know that God is still with me, seeing me through it all. we can always do things the way we like it behind the knowledge of others, but never from God. and the desire to want to walk right with God gave me the courage to do what i had to, painful although it was. and sometimes, not backing off in the face of contradicting circumstances in itself is also a challenge. quoting from kor's entry, it is our decision to be accountable to God and knowing that He is watching us all the time that keeps us going in the right way and path. i don't know how long would it take but i know that he will always stay faithful towards me to see me through.
to top it off, our life is really like a road run, coupled with sprints and dashes along the way. it takes tenacity and patience to finish the whole course. you cant possibly recklessly dash through all the red lights. and sometimes waiting at those red lights do irk us as it 'forces' us to come to a slight pause or even a stop. it takes time to pick up the momentum again. but isn't it true that intermittent breaks help in preparing for a longer journey ahead. i've learnt, or rather, still learning. that at these stops, enjoy 100% all that you are doing. hydrate yourself, stretch it out, building on your strngths and work on your weaknesses. these stops then probably would work to your advantage, helping you to progress faster later on. i for one hate waiting. i would rather not eat than to queue for more than 5 to 10 minute for my food. but it is amazing how i can queue for hours to get into service. one thing i learnt is that with God, patience and longsuffering is almost a constant with God. i guess then it really teaches us faith, to trust totally that things will all work out according to His timing and plan. just like how i started with my planning and prep unsure of what to do but to find myself coming full circle and having almost everything in place now.
another thing i learnt is to celebrate successes along the way. i finally got myself down to exercise after wanting to start on monday. the hour jog brought me closer to my goal of regular exercise for a healthier me this year. looking forward to more time to work out. to come back to my point, we are only eight days into the year. challenges will come but set milestones and celebrate them. they help to make the process of reaching your goal seemingly shorter and easier. let's work towards having all our goals achieved in this year!
i am looking forward to a great semester ahead. packing my lessons in so i have blocks of time for revision, to meet people up and to pursue my other interests . For now, there is Patchworks and ballroom dancing in hall. no harm in learning more while you are young. Jensen asked me about taking over as block rep but still contemplating about it. might be a no even if i get 5 points *closer to staying in hall next sem*. but anyway, works are undergoing to set up my dream biz. prayerfully, everything will work out and it will be up and running before i turn twenty *bades teenage years goodbye*
and for now...
la la land is awaiting...
1:00 AM
navigating and marking milestones in my life as a budding linguist, sister, daughter, leader and friend
daughter of grace.
a woman must bury her heart so deeply in God such that the man has to go through God to find it
lil ms.
Grace, Yun Rui
CHC.W466.
NTU LMS Year 2
goals.
GPA 4 for this semester
learn guitar
creative curriculum
reads.
sister's keeper
wishes.
Mission trip
bibleglo
itouch
10 megapix Digital Camera
photo printer
skechers or any uber comfy shoes and platforms
hard disk drive
