just got back home from pm. just amazing and mind-blowing. you never know what to expect from God next.
as we entered the last lap of the three for the opm, i was touched by how God moved. first worship, i was stirred. the second, touched by His very presence, even as i was serving on the slides. and God spoke to me of things that i need to get right - the things i have been confessing, the thoughts i have been harboring and the actions that i have been putting forth. i asked God once again for the heart that is so pure and holy unto Him, one that is undivided and that He ruled and reigned. i cried as i worshiped there and then, wanting a change and breakthrough in myself.
and daryl got the leaders to pray for their members and that was what i did. i'm thankful that i was able to minister to that one and faithful one that was there throughout the whole night with me. i am reminded of this very ministry that God has called me unto. and i prayed, telling God that i never want to shepherd by my own strength and wisdom but by His. i lifted my life and laid it down on the altar own again in surrender as we prayed for a stronger walk in our own lives with God. and i really really loved it.
in the final part, we got into twos and threes and prayed for one another. yieling prayed together with me and we ministered to each other. it is funny how i ended up crying buckets once again. it became really evident to me that how God knows every single event that has been transpiring in my life - the questions that i have been posed with by people, the nights that i went to bed crying, the times that i wept in prayer, the pressure and burden i feel and everything else. and even when no one understands and sees, i am fully assured that God sees and He knows. even though at times things may look okay on the surface but God knows what is deep within.
His presence is something that i have learnt that i cannot do without with. His word is sth that i want to live out and make manifested through my life. My heart, mind and words are the things that i need to learn to guard. i want to love the word more than ever before. i don't want to have the thirty pieces of silver in my life.
and another thing i learnt tonight is that much as it is important that we seek God in our own space and have a personal relationship, it is also important that we come together in a group and manner to to pray. there is great power in agreement and even more so, it is a time where every joint supplies and in the fellowship of the saints, there is light. and where there is light, there God is and He is able to bring illumination into situations, allowing us to breakthrough and giving us revelation.
like what yieling has prayed, "God, make me a stronger woman and leader for you."
i am looking forward to the next opm on christmas eve!!! and i am excited for the fifty...
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