And the little things that were spoken are enough to allow me to keep on trusting and carry on. And still, continually be given to prayer.
There were so many things I wanted to be, so many ideals that I've have had. Good ones but never quite God-given ones. And putting it all aside, I'm waiting on God for Him to speak that breakthrough in my life. What is standing between me and God right at this time? Why is that an area that I thought that I've surrendered it totally to only realize that there is more to it?
I don't want to live on the good, knowing that He has the best in store for me. It is living on compromise. And while waiting for the best, I need to and am gonna continue to give my best in all that I'm doing. In the midst of it all, I want to develop focus - can do does not equal must do. I need to know why I'm doing what I'm doing. Similarly, I need to exercise expectations management.
Since young, I've always been dreaming of my ideal friendship and love story - what it would be really like. Friendship takes hard work and just like the best things in life, they will cost you something. Are we willing to take that effort to inform, to reply that sms, to sow, to still accept the person for the way they are and to exercise loving correction? To receive, we all need to first give...
I am very much overwhelmed by the love of the friendships that I've built over the past year. Everyone taught me the value and what it means to love and give. I'm very blessed and I count them as blessings to me everyday. The love gift from eileen, cheryl, brian, weiliang, ziyun, zhitai, esther, bestie, weiliang and joyce just left me in awe. No words can describe their generosity and love. I'm looking forward to see greater things out of the friendship that I have with each of them, growing in love and maturity.
I want to be (become) the very person God created me to be, taking time to grow and develop. There are enough of every other being that is around already. And I'm thankful to friends that are helping me to take steps to be progressively so. :)
And with regards to the perfect love story,
God, hold me and lead me on. You are my all sustaining love...
The greatest love story that I've known is the one of Him lovingly pick me up each time I falter and walk away. And that is the kind of love that I want to grow and walk into - the perfect love of Christ.
I'm blessed and loved...
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