The whole day was fun and exhilarating and mind-provoking. I was positively challenged in many ways, not just growing my group but even more to grow in my relationship with Pastor, Wenling and fellow leaders, to build a relationship with them. It is not just about doing things, but whether we all know how to 做人as well.
For my helpers and members, I don't want to be just a leader to them, tasking them with things to do. I want to be their friend who cheers them on in this race and am around for them. What is the point of getting many many people but yet don't have relationship with any?
Having a chat with Wenling and Jo in the past two days have reminded me of the basics of accountability and not compromising on values. Many times I find myself being swayed by the majority even when I sense a "怪怪的感觉". But I'm glad the next time I ever feel this way, I can always bounce them off Wenling and Jo, falling back on the.. I know what I want, I just need the confidence and conviction to stand strong on them.
And the Word by Pastor Tan drew me back in once again. Was feeling a bit depressed ( to think it was only the second day of the new year ) after getting "scolded" and of the like. But it is true that in my life, I gotta stop making comparisons and run the course that God has provided my life. I need to FOCUS! to each and every one of us, God has ordained a specific portion, and I want to keep to mine. 2010 is a time of new beginning - no more looking back, only forward. And I will keep my faith level up to the level of revelation through continual prayer, praise, fasting and thanksgiving.
It kinda blew my mind that when we were giving, preparing to give, our offering, when God put a lot of visions and ideas through my mind's eyes.
My goals in 2010:
1. 100 people in 2010
2. Salvation of all 3 grandparents
3. $10,000 in bank account by end 2010
4. CGPA to qualify for second upper
(I was a bit "greedy" so wrote 4 on the envelope)
I am excited for all that will unfold in 2010. Even though the first two days of the new year wasn't exactly smooth-sailing and pretty upsetting, and depressing to some extent. But I'm looking forward to all that will unfold in the months ahead.
I know I'm a happier person now, not because of what I've accomplished but what I have seen God in my life. The greatest joy is always very simple - following God and surrendering your will unto Him. God, let me draw closer to you on this trip. Bring me to the next level with You, taking me by Your hands like you always do. :D
On another note... Must really start jogging and swimming when I get back! Havenkt got to exercise this year... =P
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