was awakened by a dream that i had. and was awakened by yet another dream when i hit back to sleep.
i am bugged. and its bugging me. even as i prayed, many many images flashed unto my mind. i was disturbed. deeply disturbed. i cried and i prayed some more. kinda nerve-wrecking whenever i think that i am better and that it is all blowing over, i get reminded and it keeps me back in some sense. but i am no longer fearful. just need to continually pray and lift it up to God. furthermore, the past is the past and it belongs there. and i never would want to go back into the past. it is over. whatever goes on from there is something new.
i know i am breaking through. i know i'm getting stronger each day. each confrontation means to pray more and to depend on God even more. it is through all these that we build strength and character and i learn to rely on God more. even when i don't feel like it, i will still do it because i'm empowered to do it...
every day I live, I know that You are my Lord, not just my God.
