there will be a SPK 'meeting' later. and the previously 'dreaded' court hearing. the day before and the day itself is always a big struggle for myself with my emotions. so was just talking to barry last night. he was just telling me abt an adult and maturity.
as a growing-to-be and mature adult, one needs to learn to take responsibility and ownership over things that happen. some things, such as ur family, cannot be changed. you just got to live with it. yet, don;t ever victimize urself. it is one of the most foolish things you can ever do to urself. but wat i as an individual can do, is taking my knowledge of the whole family, act on it and try to make things better.
i need to overcome the fear that i have been under previously and once again acknowledge God's sovereignity in my life. He has been more than wonderful. He is there whenever i called upon Him.
anyway, got a blue slip frm mdm khoo. will gotta forfeit my outing with the ki peeps. spoke to daddy this morning and i concluded that none of us wants this matter to drag on further. for me, it always ends up to be emotionally and physically draining on the day itself and the day before. had another sleepless night yesterday.
but hey. i made a decision. i will not escape from my fears this year. i will be a giant and confront them like Ruth and Bathsheba did. nothing good will ever come out from escaping but confronting them. it is only then dat we grow as individuals and breakthrough in our lives, and not stagnate. ruiz, jia you!
over the mountains and the seas, your river runs with love for me...
