i feel like picking up the phone and call,
to ask the questions that i have once and for all.
i feel the urge to call it all off
and confront everything face-off.
i know we all need to do what we must
to lay it all down till the last
surrendering this area every single day
reminding myself that i'm Yours and not my own
it shakes me up from time to time
and reminds me of the dimes
those that i would give for the thoughts of yours
and how it would go on for hours
my heart can only take one
just that one and no other
my soul longs for more of You each day
to ask of You to fill and complete me every day
my flesh is laid but for this cause
where i find myself lost in Your love
and all i want is simply more of you....
it has been quite a long while since i last felt this way.
but i'm learning - i'm learning patience and submission.
i don't always have to know how things are and how they will turn out.
trust. trust in God. keep trusting. learning to trust.
and i pray that God, keep me away from all the bees and butterflies.
i am not interested in having a garden.
You know that i'm not ready for the bloom.
neither do i want to bloom.
i just want to keep on at what i have been feeling strongly in my heart to do.
to put my hands into the field and do all the work that needs to be done.
grant me wisdom to relate to people without giving them the wrong ideas and motives.
help me to draw clearer boundaries and draw distances.
a good reputation can never be bought and once tarnished would cost us our entire lives to build it up once again...
Labels: struggles, thoughts
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